My current situation
Posted: Mon Sep 28, 2020 5:56 pm
Hello, I am Osiris.
I write this as a way to, certainly, vent my problems ... or well, take it as you want.
I have not had a good run lately, health problems, death of my dog (which affected me too much, and I think another is on the way to death) ...
It's sad, I know life is like that, but hey, let's say I just don't want to or don't want to accept it.
Now, things go wrong, because, almost a month ago, my mother tried to commit suicide at dawn, when I left a cutter on the table because I was fixing the house, cleaning, and for a moment I trusted myself. My mother takes quite strong antidepressants, has heart problems, and suffers from acute fibromyalgia. Now, my sister, 23 years old, almost invalidated for her whole life with two bad operations in the spinal cord, making it impossible to walk for more than 10 minutes, being the only one available for everything.
My mother was admitted to mental health don't know how it will be said in your countries) and my sister and I were alone for a few days until she returned home, with twice as strong treatment. For the economic issue I can not complain, but still ... money does not solve everything.
In my head from the beginning of everything that happened until today, several negative ideas have passed me, such as suicide. I have cried several times, I feel like being alone ... etc. It seems to me that the latter is a depression but I'm not sure.
Little by little I am turning off mentally, but hey, there are people who still help me a lot, like nikola, voodoo, strategy, serpentine ... etc, people I don't want to name also because of the privacy issue.
Well, I just wanted to talk a bit about all this with you because you are like my second family.
See you friends.
I write this as a way to, certainly, vent my problems ... or well, take it as you want.
I have not had a good run lately, health problems, death of my dog (which affected me too much, and I think another is on the way to death) ...
It's sad, I know life is like that, but hey, let's say I just don't want to or don't want to accept it.
Now, things go wrong, because, almost a month ago, my mother tried to commit suicide at dawn, when I left a cutter on the table because I was fixing the house, cleaning, and for a moment I trusted myself. My mother takes quite strong antidepressants, has heart problems, and suffers from acute fibromyalgia. Now, my sister, 23 years old, almost invalidated for her whole life with two bad operations in the spinal cord, making it impossible to walk for more than 10 minutes, being the only one available for everything.
My mother was admitted to mental health don't know how it will be said in your countries) and my sister and I were alone for a few days until she returned home, with twice as strong treatment. For the economic issue I can not complain, but still ... money does not solve everything.
In my head from the beginning of everything that happened until today, several negative ideas have passed me, such as suicide. I have cried several times, I feel like being alone ... etc. It seems to me that the latter is a depression but I'm not sure.
Little by little I am turning off mentally, but hey, there are people who still help me a lot, like nikola, voodoo, strategy, serpentine ... etc, people I don't want to name also because of the privacy issue.
Well, I just wanted to talk a bit about all this with you because you are like my second family.
See you friends.